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[Nov. 11th, 2008|09:44 am] |
i'm sure some of you have already seen this, but just in case, i wanted to pass it along. i saw it on fourfour.
watch this.
it very eloquently sums up what i've been trying to express to most of my family members for years on the issue of gay marriage. i got quite emotional watching it, and i plan to forward it on to all the people i know who voted yes on amendment 2 in florida. i went to church with my mom on sunday, and the pastor prayed for barack obama and his family, then prayed and thanked god for the "miracle" that our state had been wise enough to vote to "protect the sanctity of marriage." i'm very disappointed in florida, but not surprised. people don't even bother to learn about what this means; it's so mean-spirited, as jenny said. anyway, it's worth watching and passing along. beautiful. |
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[Sep. 24th, 2008|10:38 am] |
If you're on my friends list, I want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine... you're on my list, so I want to know you better!
01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favorite and least favorite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? |
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[Sep. 16th, 2008|09:53 am] |
ella, at her birthday party, making the introductions.
ella: "ansley, this is my friend, indiana. indiana, this is ansley. she likes poop!"
me: "aw, that's not true, is it, ansley?"
ansley: "yes, it is!" |
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[Aug. 28th, 2008|05:22 pm] |
ella and owen's first day of school went perfectly. owen didn't cry at all. i was shocked, since he has a new teacher. he skips into school every day as if he can't wait to get there.
ella gets a little teary some days, but she's doing really well. she's definitely not a morning person, but when i pick her up in the afternoon, she always says she had a great day.
they had to miss three days last week, courtesy of hurricane fay, but we're back on track now.
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[Aug. 16th, 2008|11:40 am] |
i'm going to attempt a "real" entry.
so i graduated in june, and i'm still job-hunting. i hung out with chris mele last weekend, and he's trying to help me get a job at flagler hospital. it's a long drive, but certainly better than having no job at all. i've been typing transcripts for my uncle to make money in the meantime, and thank god for that, because school supplies are not cheap, as i discovered yesterday.
ella is starting kindergarten on monday, and owen is going to be in the early education program at the same school for another year. norman and i took them to orientation this week and met their teachers. ella is very excited, and owen is not. he usually needs a couple of weeks to adjust to new situations, or, in this case, readjust to a situation.
ella also lost her first two baby teeth this month, and is very proud of herself. she's such a kid now, not a toddler or preschooler. she's also one of the funniest, most incredible people i've ever met. i'm so grateful for my children. i truly can't imagine my life as a non-parent; parenthood defines and colors who i am, in the best way.
owen is doing well. as most people in my life know, he was diagnosed with pervasive developmental delay (pdd) a couple of months ago. it's in the autism spectrum, but is not full-blown autism. he sees three therapists every week. it's expensive and difficult, but he's making so much progress. he's the sweetest little boy who loves his big sister. seeing the relationship between the two of them grow is wonderful. ella is the best at getting owen to talk. she really wants to bring him out, and she is.
i've been working through a lot of complicated relationships in my life this year. it's a hard area for me. i have difficulty with relationships changing, even when the change is beneficial. i don't know how to redefine people in my life, and i hate it when i feel things are unresolved, as they almost always are. it's something i'm learning to accept, as not everyone wants to rehash everything, and it usually does no good, anyway. particularly when the person is dishonest to an unnerving degree.
i'm learning to accept that not everyone is going to like me, even people who don't know me at all. its not fun to feel there is a pervasive image of you that in no way relates to who you know you are. it's comforting that the people who really know me don't subscribe to it. i'm someone who tries very hard to treat people fairly and do the right thing. i'm far, far from being perfect, obviously, but it amazes me how some people can do truly terrible things, and get angry at the people who they hurt. i suppose when someone treats another person badly, it's easier to villainize the person you are mistreating, or dismiss them.
life is funny.
i'm not sure how i got on this tangent. it seems to be a theme for me this year. i know this is pretty vague, but it relates to a few different things. i mean, i'm not angry at anyone. i just get so frustrated when my best attempts with people fail. i don't divide people into "good" and "bad." there are just some i can't seem to understand, no matter how hard i try. i guess it's enough just to have some peace.
overall, i'm really happy right now. i have some of the most amazing people in my life, and i have no doubt they will always be there. my late 20s are teaching me a lot. i'm actually looking forward to 30. i think it's going to be a time of a lot of growth for me. |
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[Mar. 8th, 2008|02:20 pm] |
| - November 20 - |
| You are very intellectual, and feel things very deeply. You are trustworthy and honest. Your friends love your dynamic personality and friendly nature. |
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Positive Traits: humorous, sympathetic, charming, affectionate, imaginative |
Negative Traits: sarcasm, self-pity, critical, unrealistic, irrational expectations |
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'What does your Birthdate mean?' at QuizGalaxy.com
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[Jan. 1st, 2008|03:07 pm] |
dear life,
you so crazy.
love,
laura |
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[Oct. 30th, 2007|10:42 pm] |
i had a fun (but too short, as usual) weekend in atlanta. i love halloween, and i love my kari and my amy tay. i always feel most like myself when i'm with them...i don't know how else to explain it. it was great to see chris thom, ally, christy, and all their other friends, too. also, i had two "celebrity" sightings (okay, people i recognized from reality shows):
1) dewberry from season one of hell's kitchen working in the bakery at the flying biscuit (i almost yelled "dewberry!" when he walked up to take our order, but i bit my tongue. amy and kari had no idea who he was).
2) a girl from what not to wear at ragorama. i couldn't find a picture of her on the website, but she looked cute in person.
my mom and i took the kids to disneyworld two weekends ago, and we all had a lot of fun. owen and ella both rode splash mountain and LOVED it. we stayed in a beautiful resort and went to the magic kingdom two days and epcot one day. i'm working on posting disneyworld pictures on my flickr account, but it's taking me forever to resize them all, because i don't have photoshop. i'll get them up as soon as i can, along with halloween pictures of the kids that i take tomorrow.
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[Oct. 24th, 2007|11:32 pm] |
okay, so here's what i've been doing lately:
* worrying about owen (there is so much more to this worrying than what goes on in my head, but i don't want to talk about it here)
* not exercising at all ever
* having ridiculous sexual fantasies about a guy i would not date who is not single
* eating lunch from panera in my car, by myself, whilst listening to "fresh air"
* turning down lunch invitations with classmates to eat alone in my car
* realizing that french pedicures are just plain ugly
* listening to abba
* feeling like a freak over my inability to form quick connections with people |
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[Oct. 14th, 2007|03:26 pm] |
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i put pictures from owen's 3rd birthday party on my flickr account. you can see them here. it was a music party. |
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[Sep. 14th, 2007|08:54 am] |
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he has bronchitis. it's mild, but he's on antibiotics. his fever hit 104.8 when i got up to check him last night around 1 am...i gave him a dose of motrin and hovered over him for about an hour, and he got back down to a normal temp. it sucks, because he'll seem fine, then around 5 pm, he gets miserable and his fever spikes. i left him with my dad this morning, because he seemed okay, but his doctor said he shouldn't go to school (that's a whole week i paid for, for NOTHING! oh well). i dropped ella off at school, and my dad called and said owen was hysterical and having a tantrum and screaming for mommy, and he needed me to come home. i called my professor, and she was really nice (she called last night to see if owen was okay). she said she was letting everyone leave early today, so she'd only count it as half an absence. it still makes me nervous, because that's 12 hours of school i've missed in one week. what can you do. |
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[Sep. 13th, 2007|12:28 pm] |
i had to skip school for the first time today. owen's been sick all week, kind of up and down, and he hardly slept at all last night. he got into my bed with me around midnight, before i was even asleep, and around 1:30, he bolted up in bed saying, "NO! NO!" i picked him up and carried him into the kitchen to get him some water and try to calm him down, and he was shreiking, sounding as though he was in a lot of pain or terrified. he started pulling his knees up to his chin (while i was holding him) and saying "BUGS!" and "OUCH!" and pulling at his feet. then he pointed at the kitchen floor and screamed "BUGS!" over and over again. it was as though he could see bugs, but, obviously, there were none. i kept telling him, "no bugs, owen!" but he wouldn't calm down. he was pulling at his feet. this went on for about 5 minutes, and i finally woke up my parents to ask what they thought. we decided to see if it was just a nightmare and he would calm down. he finally did, but then he wanted to stay up and play. anytime i would lay down with him in bed, he'd yell about bugs and scramble to the corner of the bed. this went on, on and off, until about 6:30 this morning, when i was finally able to get him to lay on the couch with me and go to sleep. i got up at 8 to take ella to school, and he slept until about 10:30. i'm taking him to the doctor this afternoon. his fever is gone, but it's been back and forth for about four days. what happened sounds like a night terror, but i thought those only lasted for about half an hour. and he was definitely awake and aware of my being there after a few minutes. in any case, it was scary. i almost took him to the e.r., because the way he was drawing his knees up and shreiking made it seem like he was in a lot of pain. i'll update on what i find out.
in other news, i finished my first course in school (i got an A), and this semester, i get to learn how to insert catheters on men and women (practicing on dummies).
also, if i run out of soymilk, i should just forego cereal altogether, because my stomach hurts. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2007|02:59 pm] |
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ella's birthday party pictures here. they start on the fifth picture. |
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[Sep. 2nd, 2007|11:40 am] |
i had the best time last night...i'll just say this:
*improving my bowling form (thanks, tom)
*raccoons
*wine fairy
*michelle and pricilla love
edited to add this:
babies got BIKE!
(i took this photo from pric, but i think dold snapped it.) |
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[Aug. 28th, 2007|09:46 pm] |
okay, so i'm officially a student again. so far, everything is great. i like my teachers, and i feel like i'm on top of things. eight hours of school goes by much faster than eight hours of work.
one girl in my class reminds me so much of pricilla, it's disarming. especially weird, because pricilla is the only person i know who went through this particular program. i was quickly reminded of the fact that there are always people in every class who need to question/argue every point, and i get so frustrated with people who ask questions that were just answered in the lecture, and if they'd been listening instead of talking, they wouldn't have needed to ask. this is why i don't ask 4735695 questions a day...because i LISTEN!
aaargh! some people seriously just need to talk to feel important. i also got frustrated when we divided into groups to discuss questions of medical ethics, and our question was about whether euthanasia is ethical for a patient with terminal cancer who is in excrutiating pain. of course, everyone in my group just kept pointing out that it's illegal (irrelevant) and that a cure might be found right after they die, so why would they WANT to die? (irrelevant). and nobody would shut up long enough for me to get a word in. anyway, other than that, things are good with school. i can't wait for clinicals.
it's been rough leaving ella and owen and preschool. they both have cried both days this week when i dropped them off, even though ella went every day last week without any problem whatsoever. it's just a huge adjustment for them. i knew it would be hard, but i didn't think i'd be driving to school on my first day crying the whole way.
there have been some personal things going on that i think would ordinarily throw me into a tailspin, but i've been too busy to become an emotional wreck. so maybe that's good.
i have to study now and sleep. |
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