la mort, c'est seulement la mort

Tue, 11 Nov 2008 14:37:36 GMT

i'm sure some of you have already seen this, but just in case, i wanted to pass it along. i saw it on fourfour.
watch this.
it very eloquently sums up what i've been trying to express to most of my family members for years on the issue of gay marriage. i got quite emotional watching it, and i plan to forward it on to all the people i know who voted yes on amendment 2 in florida. i went to church with my mom on sunday, and the pastor prayed for barack obama and his family, then prayed and thanked god for the "miracle" that our state had been wise enough to vote to "protect the sanctity of marriage." i'm very disappointed in florida, but not surprised. people don't even bother to learn about what this means; it's so mean-spirited, as jenny said. anyway, it's worth watching and passing along. beautiful.

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 14:28:13 GMT

If you're on my friends list, I want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine... you're on my list, so I want to know you better!

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favorite and least favorite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

manners

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 13:44:33 GMT

ella, at her birthday party, making the introductions.
ella: "ansley, this is my friend, indiana. indiana, this is ansley. she likes poop!"
me: "aw, that's not true, is it, ansley?"
ansley: "yes, it is!"

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 21:14:26 GMT

ella and owen's first day of school went perfectly. owen didn't cry at all. i was shocked, since he has a new teacher. he skips into school every day as if he can't wait to get there.
ella gets a little teary some days, but she's doing really well. she's definitely not a morning person, but when i pick her up in the afternoon, she always says she had a great day.
they had to miss three days last week, courtesy of hurricane fay, but we're back on track now.

Mon, 25 Aug 2008 15:16:40 GMT

Appearance:
- I am 5'4 or shorter.
- I think I'm ugly.
- I have many scars.
- I tan easily.
- I wish my hair was a different colour.
- I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
- I have a tattoo.
- I am self-conscious about my appearance.
- I have/I've had braces.
- I wear glasses.
- I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
- I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
- I have had more than 2 piercings.
- I have had piercings in places besides my ears.
- I have freckles.

Family/Home Life:
- I've sworn at my parents.
- I've run away from home.
- I've been kicked out of the house.
- My biological parents are together.
- I have a sibling less than one year old.
- I want to have kids someday.
- I have children.
- I've lost a child.

Embarrassment:
- I've slipped out a "LOL" in a spoken conversation.
- Disney movies still make me cry.
- I've snorted while laughing.
- I've laughed so hard I've cried.
- I've glued my hand to something.
- I've laughed until some sort of beverage came out my nose.
- I've had my trousers rip in public.

Health:
- I was born with a disease/impairment.
- I've had stitches.
- I've broken a bone.
- I've had my tonsils removed.
- I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
- I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
- I've had serious surgery.
- I've had chicken pox.

Travelling:
- I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
- I've been on a plane.
- I've been to North America.
- I've been to Niagara Falls.
- I've been to Japan.
- I've been to Europe.
- I've been to Africa.

Experiences:
- I've been lost in my city.
- I've seen a shooting star.
- I've wished on a shooting star.
- I've seen a meteor shower.
- I've gone out in public in my pyjamas.
- I've pushed all the buttons in a lift.
- I've been to a casino.
- I've been skydiving.
- I've gone skinny dipping.
- I've played spin the bottle.
- I've crashed a car.
- I've been skiing.
- I've been in a play.
- I've met someone in person from the Internet.
- I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
- I've seen the Northern Lights.
- I've sat on a roof top at night.
- I've played chicken.
- I've seen the Rocky Horror Show
- I've eaten Sushi.
- I've been snowboarding.

Relationships:
- I'm single.
- I'm in a relationship.
- I'm available.
- I'm engaged.
- I'm married.
- I've gone on a blind date.
- I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
- I have a fear of abandonment.
- I've been divorced.
- I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
- I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
- I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
- I've kept something from a past relationship.

Honesty/Crime:
- I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
- I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
- I have lied to my parents about where I am.
- I am keeping a secret from the world.
- I've cheated while playing a game.
- I've cheated on a test.
- I've driven through a red light.
- I've been suspended from school.
- I've witnessed a crime.
- I've been in a fist fight.
- I've been arrested.
- I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol:
- I've consumed alcohol.
- I smoke cigarettes.
- I smoke pot.
- I regularly drink.
- I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
- I take cough medication when I'm not sick.
- I've done hard drugs.
- I've been addicted to an illegal substance.
- I can't swallow pills.
- I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.

Mental Health:
- I have been diagnosed with depression.
- I shut others out when I'm depressed.
- I take anti-depressants.
- I have an eating disorder.
- I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
- I've hurt myself on purpose.
- I'm addicted to self harm.
- I've woken up crying.

Death:
- I'm afraid of dying.
- I hate funerals.
- I've seen someone dying.
- I have attempted suicide.
- Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
- Someone close to me has committed suicide.

Random:
- I can sing well.
- I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
- I open up to others too easily.
- I watch the news.
- I don't kill bugs.
- I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for sake of being able to rhyme.
- I fucking swear regularly.
- I sing in the shower.
- I am a morning person.
- I paid for my mobile phone ring tone.
- I'm a snob about grammar.
- I am a sports fanatic.
- God has spoken to me.
- I play with my hair.
- I have/had "x"s in my screen name.
- I love being neat.
- I love Spam.
- I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
- I bake well.
- I don't know how to shoot a gun.
- I am in love with love.
- I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
- I laugh at my own jokes.
- I eat fast food weekly.
- I believe in ghosts.
- I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
- I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
- I am really ticklish.
- I love white chocolate.
- I bite my nails.
- I play video games.
- I'm good at remembering faces.
- I'm good at remembering names.
- I'm good at remembering dates.
- I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
- My answers are totally honest.

hey, guys.

Sat, 16 Aug 2008 15:48:36 GMT

i'm going to attempt a "real" entry.
so i graduated in june, and i'm still job-hunting. i hung out with chris mele last weekend, and he's trying to help me get a job at flagler hospital. it's a long drive, but certainly better than having no job at all. i've been typing transcripts for my uncle to make money in the meantime, and thank god for that, because school supplies are not cheap, as i discovered yesterday.
ella is starting kindergarten on monday, and owen is going to be in the early education program at the same school for another year. norman and i took them to orientation this week and met their teachers. ella is very excited, and owen is not. he usually needs a couple of weeks to adjust to new situations, or, in this case, readjust to a situation.
ella also lost her first two baby teeth this month, and is very proud of herself. she's such a kid now, not a toddler or preschooler. she's also one of the funniest, most incredible people i've ever met. i'm so grateful for my children. i truly can't imagine my life as a non-parent; parenthood defines and colors who i am, in the best way.
owen is doing well. as most people in my life know, he was diagnosed with pervasive developmental delay (pdd) a couple of months ago. it's in the autism spectrum, but is not full-blown autism. he sees three therapists every week. it's expensive and difficult, but he's making so much progress. he's the sweetest little boy who loves his big sister. seeing the relationship between the two of them grow is wonderful. ella is the best at getting owen to talk. she really wants to bring him out, and she is.

i've been working through a lot of complicated relationships in my life this year. it's a hard area for me. i have difficulty with relationships changing, even when the change is beneficial. i don't know how to redefine people in my life, and i hate it when i feel things are unresolved, as they almost always are. it's something i'm learning to accept, as not everyone wants to rehash everything, and it usually does no good, anyway. particularly when the person is dishonest to an unnerving degree.
i'm learning to accept that not everyone is going to like me, even people who don't know me at all. its not fun to feel there is a pervasive image of you that in no way relates to who you know you are. it's comforting that the people who really know me don't subscribe to it. i'm someone who tries very hard to treat people fairly and do the right thing. i'm far, far from being perfect, obviously, but it amazes me how some people can do truly terrible things, and get angry at the people who they hurt. i suppose when someone treats another person badly, it's easier to villainize the person you are mistreating, or dismiss them.
life is funny.
i'm not sure how i got on this tangent. it seems to be a theme for me this year. i know this is pretty vague, but it relates to a few different things. i mean, i'm not angry at anyone. i just get so frustrated when my best attempts with people fail. i don't divide people into "good" and "bad." there are just some i can't seem to understand, no matter how hard i try. i guess it's enough just to have some peace.
overall, i'm really happy right now. i have some of the most amazing people in my life, and i have no doubt they will always be there. my late 20s are teaching me a lot. i'm actually looking forward to 30. i think it's going to be a time of a lot of growth for me.

i find this WEIRDLY accurate.

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 19:15:00 GMT

- November 20 -
You are very intellectual, and feel things very deeply. You are trustworthy and honest. Your friends love your dynamic personality and friendly nature.
Positive Traits: humorous, sympathetic, charming, affectionate, imaginative
Negative Traits: sarcasm, self-pity, critical, unrealistic, irrational expectations
'What does your Birthdate mean?' at QuizGalaxy.com

real update coming one of these days.

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 22:14:47 GMT

1. What is in the back seat of your car right now?
booster seats for the kids.

2. When was the last time you threw up?
many months ago

3. What's your favorite word or phrase?
what the-?

4. Name 3 people who made you smile today?
ella, owen, a nurse at the hospital

5. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
setting up a room for surgery

6. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
talking to ella

8. Have you ever been to a strip club?
no

9. What is the last thing you said aloud?
"i'm going into the office for a few minutes."

10. What is the best ice cream flavor?
plain chocolate is my favorite

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
coffee

12. What are you wearing right now?
o.r. scrubs...oh, ARE they?

13. What was the last thing you ate?
a pickle

14. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
no

15. When was the last time you ran?
yesterday, running alongside owen while he rode his bike.

16. What's the last sporting event you watched?
i don't know....i never really watch sports

17. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
prague

18. Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace
nicole

19. Ever go camping?
not lately. i did when i was a kid.

20. Do you have a tan?
haha

21. Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
not that i know of...

22. What is your guilty pleasure?
reading in the bathtub for, like, an hour

23. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
uh, no

24. Do you drink your soda from a straw?
no, i don't really drink soda

25. What did your last text message say?
it was probably a picture

26. Are you someone's best friend?
hm. i don't know.

27. What are you doing tomorrow?
taking ella and owen to school and getting caught up on cleaning.

28. Where is your mom right now?
en route home, probably

29. Look to your left, what do you see?
a printer

30. What color is your watch?
i don't wear one. i use my phone.

31. What do you think of when you think of Australia?
the wiggles and cate blanchett.

32. Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
i love them, but i haven't ridden one in a long time.

33. What is your birthstone?
topaz or citrine or something orangey.

34. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
neither

35. Do you have any friends on myspace that you actually hate?
i don't hate anybody.

36. Do you have a dog?
my mom's are sort of mine while i'm living here, i guess.

37. Last person you talked to on the phone?
my mom

38. Have you met anyone famous?
elliott smith

39. Any plans today?
make dinner, give the kids a bath, etc.

41. Are you happy?
eh, i'm working on it.

42. Where are you right now?
the office at my parents' house.

43. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
stuff i can't really put into words

44. Last song listened to?
something by jenny lewis in my car, i think

45. Last movie you saw?
in a theater, atonement

46. Are you allergic to anything?
yes, penicillen

47. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
gold flats

48. Are you jealous of anyone?
no

50. Is anyone jealous of you?
how would i know?

51. What time is it?
5:18

52. Do any of your friends have children?
yes

53. Do you eat healthy?
very healthy

54. What do you usually do during the day?
clinicals

55. Do you hate anyone right now?
no. there are a handful of people i dislike, for good reason, and wish to avoid.

56. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
i'm more of a "hey"er. HAYYYY!

57. How many kids do you want when your older?
okay, first of all, survey, it's "when YOU'RE older." and i have two kids now, and i'm happy with that.

58. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
29. yikes.

59. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
no, weirdly.

60. How did you get one of your scars?
having owen.

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 20:02:45 GMT

dear life,
you so crazy.
love,
laura

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 16:25:01 GMT

disneyworld pictures are here.

Wed, 31 Oct 2007 02:58:47 GMT

i had a fun (but too short, as usual) weekend in atlanta. i love halloween, and i love my kari and my amy tay. i always feel most like myself when i'm with them...i don't know how else to explain it. it was great to see chris thom, ally, christy, and all their other friends, too. also, i had two "celebrity" sightings (okay, people i recognized from reality shows):
1) dewberry from season one of hell's kitchen working in the bakery at the flying biscuit (i almost yelled "dewberry!" when he walked up to take our order, but i bit my tongue. amy and kari had no idea who he was).
2) a girl from what not to wear at ragorama. i couldn't find a picture of her on the website, but she looked cute in person.

my mom and i took the kids to disneyworld two weekends ago, and we all had a lot of fun. owen and ella both rode splash mountain and LOVED it. we stayed in a beautiful resort and went to the magic kingdom two days and epcot one day. i'm working on posting disneyworld pictures on my flickr account, but it's taking me forever to resize them all, because i don't have photoshop. i'll get them up as soon as i can, along with halloween pictures of the kids that i take tomorrow.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 03:35:32 GMT

okay, so here's what i've been doing lately:
* worrying about owen (there is so much more to this worrying than what goes on in my head, but i don't want to talk about it here)
* not exercising at all ever
* having ridiculous sexual fantasies about a guy i would not date who is not single
* eating lunch from panera in my car, by myself, whilst listening to "fresh air"
* turning down lunch invitations with classmates to eat alone in my car
* realizing that french pedicures are just plain ugly
* listening to abba
* feeling like a freak over my inability to form quick connections with people

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 02:59:03 GMT

MOUTHOLOGY

Q. What is your salad dressing of choice?
A. oil and vinegar

Q. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
A. panera, if that counts. i get it to go!

Q. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
A. casbah or a good thai or indian place

Q. On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant?
A. 20%

Q. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
A. kashi trail mix bars...i eat one every day for breakfast.

Q. What are your pizza toppings of choice?
A. all veggies except for black olives

Q. What do you like to put on your toast?
A: strawberry polaner's all fruit

TECHNOLOGY

Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
A: jaguars! it's my dad's computer.

Q. How many televisions are in your house/apartment?
A. 5

BIOLOGY

Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
A. right

Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
A. one ureter and two people

Q. When was the last time you had a cavity?
A. years ago...the only one i've ever had.

Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
A. a person in my class today (we were practicing moving and positioning patients for surgery)

Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
A. no

BULL[CRAP]OLOGY

Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
A. no

Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
A: i like my name just fine.

Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
A. green

Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake?
A. i don't think so

Q. Have you ever saved someone's life?
A. i claim to have saved chris mele's life, but i'm probably exaggerating

Q. Has someone ever saved yours?
A. i guess the surgeon who operated on me when i was a baby

DARE-OLOGY

Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
A. as long as it wasn't someone STANK

Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000
A. no

Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000?
A. yes

Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
A: no

Q: What is in your left pocket?
A: i'm wearing pajamas

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
A: i don't know. i liked it when i first saw it, but i don't think i'd watch it again.

Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
A: carpet and tile

Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
A: stand, but i take baths when i can

Q: Could you live with roommates?
A: no. other than my parents, i mean.

Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
A: maybe one, which i haven't worn in years (they're NOT shoes!)

Q: Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
A. i can't remember, unless you count my dad.

Q: What do you want to be when you grow up?
A: a writer

Q: Who is number 1 on your myspace top 8
A: kari

LASTOLOGY

Q: Friend you talked to on the phone?
A: kari

Q: Last person who called you?
A. norman

Q: Person you hugged?
A: ella

FAVORITOLOGY

Q: Number(s)?
A: 32

Q: Season?
A: fall

CURRENTOLOGY

Q: Missing someone?
A: lots of my friends

Q: Mood?
A. anxious

Q: Listening to?
A: nothing

Q: Watching?
A. nothing

Q: Worrying about?
A: owen

RANDOMOLOGY

Q: First place you went this morning?
A: the bathroom

Q: What can you not wait to do?
A: take the kids to disneyworld this weekend, and visit kari and amy the following weekend

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
A: i watched part of little miss sunshine tonight.

Q: Do you smile often?
A: no...people always tell me i should smile more. then i punch them in the face.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: i think i am, but i've been told by a lot of people that they thought i didn't like them when they first met me. i guess i'm just shy.

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 19:24:48 GMT

i put pictures from owen's 3rd birthday party on my flickr account. you can see them here. it was a music party.

o-sto

Fri, 14 Sep 2007 13:00:40 GMT

he has bronchitis. it's mild, but he's on antibiotics. his fever hit 104.8 when i got up to check him last night around 1 am...i gave him a dose of motrin and hovered over him for about an hour, and he got back down to a normal temp. it sucks, because he'll seem fine, then around 5 pm, he gets miserable and his fever spikes. i left him with my dad this morning, because he seemed okay, but his doctor said he shouldn't go to school (that's a whole week i paid for, for NOTHING! oh well). i dropped ella off at school, and my dad called and said owen was hysterical and having a tantrum and screaming for mommy, and he needed me to come home. i called my professor, and she was really nice (she called last night to see if owen was okay). she said she was letting everyone leave early today, so she'd only count it as half an absence. it still makes me nervous, because that's 12 hours of school i've missed in one week. what can you do.

those aren't grocery bags, they're my eyelids!

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 16:40:37 GMT

i had to skip school for the first time today. owen's been sick all week, kind of up and down, and he hardly slept at all last night. he got into my bed with me around midnight, before i was even asleep, and around 1:30, he bolted up in bed saying, "NO! NO!" i picked him up and carried him into the kitchen to get him some water and try to calm him down, and he was shreiking, sounding as though he was in a lot of pain or terrified. he started pulling his knees up to his chin (while i was holding him) and saying "BUGS!" and "OUCH!" and pulling at his feet. then he pointed at the kitchen floor and screamed "BUGS!" over and over again. it was as though he could see bugs, but, obviously, there were none. i kept telling him, "no bugs, owen!" but he wouldn't calm down. he was pulling at his feet. this went on for about 5 minutes, and i finally woke up my parents to ask what they thought. we decided to see if it was just a nightmare and he would calm down. he finally did, but then he wanted to stay up and play. anytime i would lay down with him in bed, he'd yell about bugs and scramble to the corner of the bed. this went on, on and off, until about 6:30 this morning, when i was finally able to get him to lay on the couch with me and go to sleep. i got up at 8 to take ella to school, and he slept until about 10:30. i'm taking him to the doctor this afternoon. his fever is gone, but it's been back and forth for about four days. what happened sounds like a night terror, but i thought those only lasted for about half an hour. and he was definitely awake and aware of my being there after a few minutes. in any case, it was scary. i almost took him to the e.r., because the way he was drawing his knees up and shreiking made it seem like he was in a lot of pain. i'll update on what i find out.

in other news, i finished my first course in school (i got an A), and this semester, i get to learn how to insert catheters on men and women (practicing on dummies).

also, if i run out of soymilk, i should just forego cereal altogether, because my stomach hurts.

Sun, 09 Sep 2007 18:59:29 GMT

ella's birthday party pictures here. they start on the fifth picture.

you must not know bout me, you must not know bout me

Sun, 02 Sep 2007 15:41:18 GMT

i had the best time last night...i'll just say this:

*improving my bowling form (thanks, tom)
*raccoons
*wine fairy
*michelle and pricilla love

edited to add this:

babies got BIKE!
(i took this photo from pric, but i think dold snapped it.)

can somebody please remove these cutleries from my knees?

Wed, 29 Aug 2007 01:57:44 GMT

okay, so i'm officially a student again. so far, everything is great. i like my teachers, and i feel like i'm on top of things. eight hours of school goes by much faster than eight hours of work.
one girl in my class reminds me so much of pricilla, it's disarming. especially weird, because pricilla is the only person i know who went through this particular program. i was quickly reminded of the fact that there are always people in every class who need to question/argue every point, and i get so frustrated with people who ask questions that were just answered in the lecture, and if they'd been listening instead of talking, they wouldn't have needed to ask. this is why i don't ask 4735695 questions a day...because i LISTEN!
aaargh! some people seriously just need to talk to feel important. i also got frustrated when we divided into groups to discuss questions of medical ethics, and our question was about whether euthanasia is ethical for a patient with terminal cancer who is in excrutiating pain. of course, everyone in my group just kept pointing out that it's illegal (irrelevant) and that a cure might be found right after they die, so why would they WANT to die? (irrelevant). and nobody would shut up long enough for me to get a word in. anyway, other than that, things are good with school. i can't wait for clinicals.
it's been rough leaving ella and owen and preschool. they both have cried both days this week when i dropped them off, even though ella went every day last week without any problem whatsoever. it's just a huge adjustment for them. i knew it would be hard, but i didn't think i'd be driving to school on my first day crying the whole way.
there have been some personal things going on that i think would ordinarily throw me into a tailspin, but i've been too busy to become an emotional wreck. so maybe that's good.
i have to study now and sleep.

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 19:11:04 GMT

you can see pictures of ella's first day of school at my flickr page here.

YES!

Sat, 18 Aug 2007 18:55:53 GMT

it was awesome!

in other news, last night was awesome, too. note to self: stop saying "awesome."
i had a lot of fun with m'ladies jenny, michelle, and pricilla. and dold, who is not a lady, but i love him, anyway.
i miss you guys. we have to do stuff more often!

tom, good job on the veejaying. sorry i didn't come up and say hi, but those steps scared me (i think i mentioned this about 1,000 times last night).

dear god, please let this happen for halloween:

jenny called dibs on tito, but i guess someone can always be ~~janet~~ miss jackson, if you're nasty.

this, too.

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 21:39:14 GMT

i'm actually going to have some free time this week (for the first time in a LONG time), because ella and owen are going camping with the stovalls from thursday until saturday. so if anybody wants to hang out with me, this may be your last chance for a while! come and git it!

also, i've been trying to use that myheritage thing (yeah, from like two years ago), but it's rejecting all of my photos! i used the most straightforward, full-face picture of me i had, but it hates me. any insider tips?

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 21:30:00 GMT

i thought i was done with this journal, simply because i couldn't remember the password, and they shut down ye olde hotmail account because i didn't use it for two years...but i just remembered it, so i guess i'm back.
and what better way to mark my return than colorquiz, again? yeah, this is pretty dead-on, probably related to two separate situations.

colorquiz test results:

Your Existing Situation

Sensitive; needs esthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm intimacy.

Your Stress Sources

The situation is regarded as threatening or dangerous. Outraged by the thought that she will be unable to achieve her goals and distressed at the feeling of helplessness to remedy this. Over-extended and feels beset, possibly to the point of nervous prostration.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction from sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective

Feels she has been unjustly and undeservedly treated and betrayed in her hopes. Disgruntled and in revolt against her existing circumstance which she considers an affront.

Your Actual Problem

Depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation, or demands on her resources. A feeling of powerlessness subjects her to agitation, irritation, and acute distress from which she tries to escape by refusing further direct participation. She confines herself to a cautious approach and a concealed determination to get her own way in the end.

~~p.s. why isn't effing html working for me anymore?~~

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Tue, 22 Nov 2005 15:15:20 GMT

i'd like to go to the cummer tonight to see that exhibit with the sculptures of impressionist works...it's free tuesday nights. anybody interested?

also, i'm thinking drinks and board games at my house friday night, and we can go out afterwards if you guys feel like it. of course, this is all contingent on whether my parents or norman's parents will keep ella and owen for the night, but i'll let you know.

p.s. if you google "cummer" and look at the images, you will see pictures of asses, a guy holding his penis, and cummerbunds.

"my name is moe and i invented it. that's why it's called a 'flaming moe.'"

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 23:15:33 GMT

when i was looking up pictures of katamari damacy a minute ago for a comment i was writing to kari, owen looked a picture of the cover of the game and said, "da-da!"

ella is obsessed with the idea of going to disneyworld lately. it would be fun, especially at christmastime, but no-can-do.

i was looking through my issues of martha stewart weddings and found what may be the perfect wedding dress for me. it was shown as a bridesmaid dress, but i'm looking for something non-traditional, and i love it. the trouble is, i can't figure out where to buy it. the designer's name is amelia toro, and she seems to be partly based in miami, and partly in columbia. so alex, if you happen to come across a shop selling her dresses, let me know!
i could probably have a dress made that is similar, if need be.

i watched a show on pbs today about animals that were abandoned in new orleans during hurrcane katrina, and the volunteers who went in to rescue them. it was sad and uplifting at the same time. it's hard to see animals who have been without human contact for so long that they don't know how to respond to help. many people had left them chained to porches, so they weren't able to go in search of food. very sad. watching people being reunited with their pets was touching, though.

that's it for today. oh, and this:

.............i'm sorry, did you say something?